Day Five
Day 5. I have made it through the first weekend without drinking. Threw some camping in with that along with a side of relationship angst. I didn't drink. I did find myself very cranky and quick to anger. A feeling of malaise and just blah. I got a bit manic about cleaning the house and the dog following me around was just too much.While hiking this weekend, my mantra in my head as each foot fell, was "sober suits me, sober suits me, this thing now, this thing now." Over and over.
The way that drinking was always on my brain, I feel like being sober is now always on my brain. It feels just as obsessive and I am not sure if that is okay. But I didn't drink.
I have got some drinks that I go to. Trader Joes has this nice sparkling water called Spindrift. I think it is called that. It is lovely, raspberries and lime. I also have my own soda maker, so bought some cranberry juice and am going to give that a try.
I listened to Belles one minute podcasts and they are are fabulous. Listened to the book twice. I am really feeling her help.
sober suits me.
Well done on Day 5. I understand the "I feel like being sober is now always on my brain. It feels just as obsessive and I am not sure if that is okay." I also have the same worry. I find I go over and over my reasons for quitting, I'm thinking about not drinking probably more than I did about drinking. I put that down to the need to make a New Normal. To hard-wire into my brain the concept that I don't drink any more. This all takes time and repetition. I gets easier, I hope. I've just arrived at Day 30, so it's still early days. Good luck.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for writing. I appreciate it. That is what I think as well. Hardwiring. I know that I am loving waking up proud of myself rather than feeling so disappointed in myself. Thank you for the encouragement. Congrats on Day 30. Sober suits you. Good luck to you as well.
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